CJ had been wanting an automatic coffee maker so we could wake up to the smell of coffee brewing and let it begin our morning quiet times. Stirring our affections for Jesus is a big thing for us, but I was completely content “tasting” my affection, with the warm coffee slowly waking me up, while CJ was intent on “smelling” it first thing.
So last week we went out and bought a coffee pot with the last of our wedding gift cards. The next morning we woke up to the coffee brewing and smell wafting all the way upstairs. I will admit, it was slightly wonderful!
This morning, however, I woke up and knew we had set the timer last night, but couldn’t smell the coffee. I couldn’t smell anything, really. And then I remembered, that my favorite time of year is upon us, when every plant lets their glorious yellow rain fly and into the sinus’ of the best of us Pollen season is no joke for me and the beginning of it is marked with losing most of my senses, mainly smell. As soon as I took my beloved Claritin, I was on my way back to myself.
And that got me thinking. I still knew the coffee was there, there was just a sense of it lacking. It made me wonder if there are senses that have been turned off to God’s goodness and beauty around me. I think there may be and there might always be. As I turned that thought over and over in my head as the morning progressed, I decided to get a notepad out and count the beauty around me that had already happened that morning:
-CJ taking my hand and kissing me as he headed off to work
-Opening all the blinds around the house to let the morning light pour in
-Walking past the mirror and liking what I saw looking back at me
-Little blooming peace lily buds right in front of me
Maybe this awareness is my spiritual Claritin. Most of these things I would have overlooked and went on with my day. Lately I have let myself come back to this undeniable truth: I am worthy of Hell. Nothing else. So EVERY little thing is an undeserved gift, all around me, the air I breathe, a gift. Let’s count our gifts and take our Claritin and make a habit of this everyday, opening our senses to the beauty all around and in between.